I'm glad you found that some good things came out of the 7-8 rounds last night. That's progress.
BTW,
It sounds like some of the fights I had with my STBX several years back when his MLC or whatever you call it started. It was rough and very exhausting. Eventually he quit caring enough to even make up or apologize. Forget a hug!
Me 47 Ex H 46 Bomb 9/02 D final 3/04 Ex H now married to OW
------------ This is surviving. There is no such thing as a normal life, there's just life. So get on with it and enjoy it!