Though I would never admite it maybe there is a part of me that hopes H will come out of this a better man, having learned a wonderful lesson about L, and R, and M, even life, and become the man he was when we met.
Lol... and I won't admit that the possibility of H emerging a better man and sharing that better-ness with someone who hasn't paid the dues I've paid really steams my socks!!
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
maybe there is a part of me that hopes H will come out of this a better man, having learned a wonderful lesson about L, and R, and M, even life, and become the man he was when we met. 
