It is a sad feeling to feel discarded. It is. But, that life you had together, it was real, T. The memories, the feelings - all real. No one can take that away.
It was tossed aside because of a life crisis. As I've told you, when you are deeply depressed, it's like you're underwater. You can see and hear everything, but, it's all muddled and distorted. So, you keep trying to reach the surface, but, you cant quite figure out how.
You feel like you're running out of air. So, you try everything you can to feel better.
How long till they keep trying to swim. No one knows. It is different for everytone. It depends on why they went in to crisis. It depends on whether they do the work or what they are made of.
I have spoken to my xh about his affair. It lasted about 2 years, I think. I asked him what he was thinking having one with her?
He said, "I don't know. Clearly I wasnt thinking." When I asked why it didnt last, he said, "How could it last, UR, look how it started."
T, all you can do is take it one day at a time. And I know this is a horrific thing. It also allows us to become who we were meant to be. What a gift.
