If it helps Raine, my W said similar things about half a dozen times the first 8-9 months...then she stopped until she had to disclose the PA in Feb/Mar, then those thoughts and words came back once or twice, driven by guilt/shame and wanting to run, imo. She hasn't said them again, and her actions appear to say she is working through them atm.
Hang in there!!
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
