Courage is doing things you are afraid of. Since you're afraid of so very much, you're actually quite a courageous man. Keep it up!
Did you know when you put yourself down you're putting down a whole bunch of people? Are you saying the other countless engineers in the world are worthless weenies? What if they would like to read a blog by someone like them with a different take on culture and the arts? Who are YOU to put them down? Take yourself at face value and stop placing judgments on it. Your idea that "men" like cars and sports is very skewed. Men like all kinds of things. You're a man. Stop the judging and just BE. You're really a pretty cool interesting guy, who is unfortunately obsessed with an unhealthy relationship. Would love to see that change, but the rest of you is GOOD, not just good enough but GOOD.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
