Well, I commend you for seeking guidance in personal growth and with any area of your life. However, none of this will be successful for you unless you apply your own volition. To break free of being the "passive bystander" will probably be your greatest challenge.

Anyone can sit on the sidelines and watch and listen. But if you don't participate, apply, and use your God given free will to live what you agree with.......it's like being locked in a cage. No program or counselor or forum is going to make your life better. As long as you CHOOSE to continue in your passive thinking and acting.

Have you took anything this forum has suggest, and really put it into action? If you don't agree with the advice, that's fine. But if it's just more passivity.......

My suggestion is that you go in to see your new C and tell him(and I hope it's a man) that you have allowed passivity to ruin your life and you need serious guidance in how to change. It doesn't change anything when you continually dig up the past. Once you know how it has affected you, why keep going over it? It is the present time you need help.

I hope you get it.

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!