Lilith,
How are you today? What plans do you have for the weekend?

Keep the focus on you and allow God to work on your h. I know it's difficult to detach, but you have to start taking little baby steps to do so.

Please take care of yourself.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.