I find that when I am really struggling, it helps to let go of everything (literally) because it overwhelms me to think about all the things I have on my plate all at once and I just concentrate on what is in front of me.
You have this short weekend getaway coming up... Perhaps take this time to not worry about anything. Forget the messy house, forget about not having a plan, forget about not working out - just for the weekend. You can tackle "your life" one thing at a time when you get back.
Right now you just want to get out of this funk. So focus all your energy and time to just being present with your kids. Remember - this weekend will never come back - enjoy every moment with them, create great memories that both you and them can cherish forever. Concentrate on listening to them, talking to them, laughing with them.
And yes, the gratitude list helps tons. Do it as soon as you wake up, before getting out of bed to get you started on a positive note. Do a second one before you go to sleep at night - recapping all the things you are grateful for that you had just that day.
Hang in there. You know you are riding a bad low on the roller coaster and that it will pass. You just need to get yourself out of there.
((((((BF)))))))
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
