Interesting little twist today. I spoke to W early in the day to cancel her invitation to stay at her home Wednesday night to be with S. I wasn't angry or accusing her in any way. I simply stated that I respect her desire to go out on her designated nights out. I accept that on those nights if she desires to stay out all night and stay somewhere else that is her decision.
But that I won't participate in a cycle of behavior between us that is hurtful. I told her that I know she isn't doing it to be hurtful, I just have to control myself and have a boundary to not allow myself to be involved in that. I am moving forward with my life.
She was very upset and has said repeatedly that she is very confused about things. She hasn't felt any pressure from me in all this ( wed night was her idea) and she wanted me to stay at her home on Wednesdays that she would come to her home when I was there. She said that is what she wanted.
Told W we had a week to think about it but I was willing to try again provided this is her desire. If it wasn't I was happy to explore a different option.
Also in telling her about the events I have coming up for my business she became very upset again. I invited her to one if she wanted to, she had again expressed her confusion but said to let her know when and she would think about it. But she was interested.
I feel very good mentally, continuing to stay in a nice detached place, but being open and friendly to W. Now she is showing interest but I still am moving forward with my own GAL. She can join me or not for these things. I will enjoy myself either way.
Me-36 W-31 M-7 S-5 BD Dec/12- things were wrong for awhile, head was in the sand
Seeking means: to have a goal Finding means: to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal
