Lastly, excuse the length, I did try and take care of me. I joined a church small group which had a number of people I really liked in it. It was a chance for me to do something for me! It was on Friday nights which was the night she got off work. So, I`d drop D15 at gymnastics, pick up SDA Lady from work and we`d come back to my place, make dinner and I`d leave for my group at 7:30pm. Each night she`d make a remark like ``oh, you should stay home`, it`s slippery out tonight.`Which made me feel guilty...I`d still go though. Finally, I sat her down and told her that I really needed her to support me in this. I`d been asking her to come to meet my friends but she always had an excuse, too tired, have to prepare for weekend job, ...maybe in the summer. Next week, the comments continued only now she`d slap her face and say `bad girl SDA lady`This really floored me. I needed her to be there for me and support me in developing these friendships and what I got was basically `what about me``It helped me realize that this was not what I wanted and not who I thought I was involved with. It hurt.
