Taking a step back-a fresh start

[cbtdad]

Ok, so I was having a great day all day today. Then I saw W and there went that.
I asked her if it would be ok to stop by and see him in between appointments for a little bit and she said sure. So I get there before they do and I go to get him out of car. Son says he wants to play pirates game( its a video game on ps3), I said in a little bit daddy wants to play first. He flips out screaming and crying.
I told wife this game seems like all he wants to do.
Every time I go over there he is playin this game non stop.
Anyways, she then says he only acts like this when I'm around.
Just very belittling. I did my best not to get in an argument and walked away.
Well about 30 min later she comes walking up asking me about his person who sent me a message about OM, wanting to know who it was.
I told her I was not going to tell her. She let it go.
She then begins to tell me is always upset around me. I asked her why and she said she doesn't know. I didn't respond I just while that stinks to hear. I went and told son goodbye and then told her bye.
I was thinking about sons reaction and how we haven't taking him to do anything in a couple of weeks. So I texted her the following:

Me: Would you be up for doing something with S tomorrow afternoon/early evening?

W: not really

Me: ok. I'll just see him Sunday then

But instead of just leaving it at that, I sent the following:
Me: Do you even want me to keep this appt with MC on the 7th?

I swear I can't get out of my own way and do the dumbest things.
I'm doing great all day then see W and do something stupid