Journal.
It's our wedding anniversary today. 6 years and 15 years together.
Strange feelings. Sad to realise that our m was put on the back burner over the last two years and all other things became more important. I realise that I wanted my w to value our m more than her job and as much as the kids but I wasn't probably doing enough of the right things to assist that.

Who is this person that is still my w.? so cold and disconnected and so seemingly happy to just go along like this. Some days she feels like stranger and I find it hard to feel those emotions of love and affection. Its hard to believe we were M . Other days I long to be with her and talk to her.

In the end it's just another day and another opportunity to try and turn this negative into a positive...lets see how I go.

Me - 37
W - 37
M -5
T - 15

S=5
S=3

Seperated - 12/12
BD - 20/03/13
Still seperated - no R or M talk yet.