I put the email in my draft folder and came back this afternoon. When I reread it... I saw what I was really doing. I made it seem like I was doing her a favor when what I really wanted was to control her emotions to make her feel embarrassed and hurt like I was. It was so pass-aggr!!!! It was jumping off the screen! I was hurt and I wanted to hurt her. That was it.
I deleted the email and stayed NC.
That must have taken a lot of strength to admit that and to not sent the email. Great job!
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
