Have you communicated to him, in a calm and detached way, that you have thought about this and don't want the D? I think this is important to do so, and would be okay to repeat, to make sure he knows you are consistent. The idea is not to change his mind or plead with him, but just to make sure he is not misunderstanding your state of mind.
I hope you can find friends or IC to talk to about this (or vent a bit on this site). You're going through a tough time. The main advice my IC gave me at this point was to have patience and compassion for myself. Take care of yourself!
H: 38 xW: 38 M: 16 T: 18 S: 9 BD: 2/2012 W moved out 4/2012 D: 11/2012
