I think you're worth the fight and hopefully you can someday believe that.
Some people just don't like to take on difficult tasks, maybe your H is one of those who thinks a R should be easy. Whatever the reason, he may never see the you that others see. The important thing is that you know who you are and reflect that to your kids and others.
You have the tools to help get your kids through this tough time and it won't be the only tough spot you support them through. The future could hold even more difficult times. We never know.
Here's another quote for you: Life is just the way it is supposed to be: unpredictable, good, bad, ugly, and great all rolled up into one incredibly short experience.
I know many people whose parents are D, we all do. Most are wonderful, well-adjusted folks. Yes, some may agree that the D was painful and they wished it didn't happen but they have not let that define them. Some say that it was a good thing.
Some aren't wonderful or well-adjusted but who's to say that the D was the cause?
Define yourself and your life going forward.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss