I'm trying, but, I have a lifetime of insecurity and inadequacy along with now realizing I am co dependent on W for everything in my life to overcome. I'm trying to figure out how to put my life together so that I can live. If that includes her again down the road all the better, in fact would Lve that and is my goal or I wouldn't be here.
I need help and to figure out how to get by the loneliness and the aching of missing her. Everywhere I look in our house I see memories of her and us. I experience things during the day and want to tell her like I used to. And my ind is just all over the map. Last night she was out at a social function, she told me she might not be able to talk to D at bedtime, but, to text. I did, and she never responded, at all.. Which is odd for her not to have texted area the function even to ask how D was. Nothing. My mind went racing.! Is she with someone else? I've asked her that flat out twice very early on, and she has told me that is not what this is about, that if she can't be in love with me, she isn't in love with anyone and it's not on her radar... I believe her, but, it doesn't stop my mind.
Does anyone know how to deal with this? When you're an insecure person to begin with, then become an LBS? The self esteem is cratered. I keep telling myself to stop Overthinking.
