Hey BF, so sorry things have been such a struggle lately. Its such as open wound. It will scab over at times and then something, somehow rips the scab off and the pain returns and the healing starts again.

Sorry that your kids are hurting so bad too. That's just rough. You are the one that will help them through this though and you have what it takes to do it. That may mean getting support from others to assist you, (school counselors, etc.) You don't have to do it alone but you can orchestrate the needed support.

And somewhere in there you need to take care of yourself and your own feelings. That's the best thing you can do for your kids. Its probably one of the hardest things too because it involves so much time and concentration. In some ways it will feel selfish, but its not.

And nice job on the fridge! What's next?

Me:45, W:45
S:16 D:13
M:22, T:25
Bomb: July 2010
Putting finances in order for "D"
Continue to live in same home-separate rooms