Help! I'm afraid to mess this up!

[ezekiel37]

Well, he wants to set aside time every week to "talk" and make a plan. ( I found copies of divorce papers in his truck ). I asked him what he was hoping the picture would look like. He said he wants me to stay in the area, he wants to be able to see the kids whenever he wants, he wants to celebrate holidays together, coach together. I asked him if he only wants to interact with me regarding the kids, and he said no. He said he enjoys hanging out with me and doing things together, but doesn't want me to always hope we will get back together. We are better at being " best friends". He keeps holding to that. When I speak up about maybe moving closer to my family, and talking to a lawyer, he says if we get lawyers involved, I will lose out, that his picture and his offers are more generous than what he's required....I just don't know about that. His divorce doesn't seem like divorce, it seems like cake eating. He wants to be a bachelor sometimes, and a family man sometimes. He has no problem with me having the boys all the time, as long as there is an open door policy. How do I handle these conversations? He keeps acknowledging that he knows I don't want a divorce, keeps asking me to admit that I hope we get back together. So far, I've just admitted to not wanting to divorce.