I'm still struggling with where we are. I'm trying to get D paperwork done ASAP because we're both all over the place emotionally and I think it'll provide some stability.
I can completely relate to these thoughts and I think I've reached the same place, among other things. We've been all over the board since BD, and I see that continuing.
You are doing the right thing by taking the high road. Exposing the affair would be stooping to her level. I totally understand wanting people to not think you are crazy. My H has told the world that I'm a b!tch, crazy, the worst person on 2 feet, and now, probably a thief. Human reaction is to defend yourself.
In AlAnon, I've learned that I cannot control what other people think about me. On some level, I really don't care because I know who I am and I know the truth. And those that know me know the truth.
As much of a struggle as it is, you sound like you are making progress and moving forward to a good place.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together
