Time for the Loop the Loop on this rollercoaster!

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Firstly, Sandi thank you so SO much for your insight. I definitely to need to work on some passion in many ways. You will see what I mean in the posts I am about to write. And I will address your questions and update you on spontaneous fun things i come up with for us to do.

Starsky and MrBond yes you are right. I took time off from the forum to think about who I want to be, and to practice humility. I came back with a fresh mentality to turn a new page. and I wrote several posts to update everyone on what has happened.

I was really trying hard to practice being the person I want to be. Understanding, caring, humble etc.. and I was doing pretty well. I kept quiet about the moderation thinking the mods will remove it once I demonstrate I am a worthy member of this community.

But after many posts at a critical time in my sitch, and repeated pleading with the mods to read my post and maybe respond as to why I am on modetation. I started getting frustrated...a definite back slide from the 3 weeks work I did on my own to work on those characteristics.

I wrote an email to virginia requesting removal of moderation and perhaps an explanation as to what I did wrong so I dont repeat it. I got an automated response that she is on vacation until the 15th.

I forwarded my email to karen hoping for some help, but I as informed I had to wait for Virginia. So first thing this morning, the 17th, I wrote Virginia another email requesting assistance with this matter, and still got no response. I let me frustration get the better of me! Although I dont think I was wrong for stating that a persons life experience with the divoce of their parents influences their choices later in life (A view MWD shares), I do regret exhibiting frustration and being "in your face about it". I apologize if I sounded like I was teaching you all a lesson. The truth is, the more time passes the more I understand that you all have knowlege about relationship issues that is far superior to mine, and I am in debted to all of you for the help I have been given.

Starsky and Mr Bond, today I found out something that has COMPLETELY changed my view on my sitch. It has shed light on why 4months of 180s have done nothing to help my sitch. Also, it goes along with the view that I see both of you posting repeatedly on all the guys threads about how a wifes love for a husband is directly tied to her respect for her husband.

So my next post will detail the new revelation, lets see how you all think I should proceed.