Almost two years and still stuck in limbo

[newman7977]

Shiss, Galbaby, & Sailing thanks for your support and thoughts.

So the weekend went by and I was kind of waiting to see if W will initiate the talk with the kids. She didn't so I didn't push it either. We did get into R talk again, and I basically said we should go for separation. It's the same talk she won't move, I won't move...she wants to file, sell the house and that's the answer to all her problems. What a trip, for WAS' its like the D is they're magic pill to solve their problems. Oh well it is what it is.

What I notice though lately is that W is really really cold to me. The EA must've been getting deep again. At this point, this is a deal breaker for me. I just want to find a solid proof that she's still communicating with him so I can file for D. I just don't think our M stands a chance while she's in an EA. Going 19yrs M this year I want to make sure I will have no doubt about filing for D that she's still involve with OM.

Right now it's calm, it's colder than ever. Today I ask myself I I'm still in love with my W, quite frankly I'm not too sure anymore, maybe it's the built up resentments?

Last couple of days I detached ok. I plan on keeping the calm waters since d18 is graduating high school and s14 middle school. I continue to GAL which is exercising, riding my road bike and a charity event coming up.

I'm focusing also in the event of D, if we sell the house, we split the equity and I might be able to afford a condo. It's gonna be something on my own, just me and the kids, never had anything like that before.

Well til next update,
Newman