Less lonely, not scared..low on patience

[JBolt]

Thanks snodderly, I really appreciate that. I'm taking the mantras I've learned around here with me; GAL, detach, be the best father I can be, become the kind of person only a fool would leave. It's been almost 6 months to the BD day for me. I didn't have any kind of clock running, but it's just been too painful for me to keep wishing home was waiting for me somewhere. I have to make a new home, one that I'm living in the present in. I just couldn't do that as long as I thought my old life was out there somewhere. I hope W has found or finds the happiness she needs. She really is a great mother and was a good friend and spouse before the alien took hold. In any event, it's time to leave the past in the past as she has seemed to be able to do. That's pretty hard though given my profession (archeology)