Losing Hope w/WAH

[Shiss]

Well H came over last night. Making his typical every 3 day check-in. Texted me asking if I was home, said yes, but haven’t made any decisions on marital property or finances, he came over anyway. I acted as if, no begging, pleading, miss you’s or ILY’s. He hugged me twice, said he was sorry. He said his work is being affected by this, that his boss talked to him to ask him why he’s so out of it. He told me it would be easier if one of us had an affair or an addiction, that our marriage wasn’t horrible by any means. He told me my nails looked nice, and noticed my matching pink shirt and headband. H loves headbands for some reason. I told him I’m great, happy and that I’m getting along just fine, he agreed that I seem happy. I told him I certainly did not want the D, but that I wasn’t going to stand in his way and fight him.

H sat in the kitchen and looked around and said he “missed this.” He also said that he had never pictured his life without me. He said he was proud of me that I was doing things on my own (finances, giving dogs their shots, etc). He said being in the house by yourself would be depressing since you have no one to talk to. I replied, well I haven’t been home that much, been working a lot and going out. No sense in sitting in the house moping around.

Thoughts? Should I keep this “as if” attitude up?