Great suggestions everyone! I should be stressed to the max right now but I seem to have a strange calm. I think this had to happen. I nearly strangled that woman twice in the last week. Josh told me I sounded awful on the phone for the past week. The toll she has been taking on me was incredible. She is the ULTIMATE bitch.

I approached the nurse who was working tonight. She wants to stay on. I will approach the other 2 when I see them. We lost 2 within the last couple of weeks. One got hired in her specialty. The other, I think, got wind of what was about to happen. I think she would work for me too. One of the girls was given the job as office manager - now that was taken away from her. Perhaps she would organize the others - I will talk to her about that as soon as I see her.

And Josh and I have also been discussing the live-in nurse/nanny. Had been thinking of it for a while but didn't want to give up the privacy. To tell you the truth - with the $ I could save - I might be able to afford a small apt nearby for her. Just another thought.

Keep the thoughts coming. I don't know much about hiring privately. Any info you can give me would help.

Fig - we started with 15 hours a week when Ryan was little. It was a Godsend to give us time with our other children. Now we use help for 12 hours a day. I do the other 12 (night time). 3 of our hours a day are government subsidized.

If we had a nurse/nanny we would still need 1 or 2 nurses besides to cover for days off etc. It's a lot of work but I have always treated his nurses very well. That's why I'm pretty sure they'd work for me if we can work out the details.

I will sleep tonight. I will not stress. I will not stress. I will not stress.

Barb