It occurs to me that I still seek external validation. Case in point, am "okay" (ie not obsessing) with not hearing from H, because I know I am having lunch with someone else, who actually has texted me to say "How was your day?" and "Good morning"
How do I move from this? I know that I have made progress and suspect it is a time, self awareness thing. Not necessarily in detaching from H, but the requirement to seek external validation at these points.
I realize I am feeling low, so that is probably why I have looked for it. But in striving for authenticity, I do not want external validation to be necessary for any of my happiness.
On that note, began meditating today...I like!! A technique that I am using is to turn situations around to myself. When someone is rude to me I say to myself :I am sorry for being so rude" Supposed to enhance connections, but when I tried it in grocery store on two little kids "I am sorry for being such big pains in everyone's a$$" it didn't seem to work.
