Irreplaceable

[Takevowsserious]

rH ~ I am glad you are taking it easy for a bit, you will be well rested and ready for your new workout routine!

I am so very glad I have been able to be with you on your journey. I remember back in December, it was such a painful and dark time for you with the D looming.
Maybe it is true that things are always darkest right before dawn

I am glad you have been with me on my journey too - it's been an interesting one so far!

You aren't the only one who SO wants my H's fog to lift lol!!!

UW~ I am going to stay the course, doing my thing, letting him blow in the wind. I think maybe being the lighthouse isn't standing still as a beacon to guide them home, but more like a moth to the flame light source that they are drawn to.

And I feel like THIS light source is really starting to shine

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So H came home right after golf last night, which really surprised me. I wasn't expecting him till a few hours later.

He seemed happy about golfing, and we chatted for awhile about how he played. He was very lovey with the boys too.

Was a little more distant this morning. Told him a friend had texted me last night to meet up with our kids, so I would be doing that after work. He got irritated -again- and said "Well if she texted you last night, why didn't you tell me last night?"

What????

I told him because I was already in bed, and didn't think he would care anyway. H was very quiet for rest of the morning, and seemed down when saying goodbye.

Thing is, if he checks the cell phone account, he will see I was telling the truth - unlike him!!!!!

He does make jokes from time to time, something I have really missed. He used to be one of the funniest people I knew with such a great sense of humor. I do see it slowly creeping back in - a joke here - a playful comment there - sometimes even smiling and laughing!

Then other days... He sits as though he was etched in stone.

Looking forward to a fun time with my friend and our kids this evening