WAW is having affair, anyone with some advice?

[kenva]

Feeling I helpless in trying to save marriage and give our son the family life he deserves. I went to my first attorneys appointment came home and told her I would not sign the deed over. She,as I expected got all irate. I stayed calm. We were going back and forth of what we both wanted. She an uncontested divorce and me telling her a new life together w her. Nothing. I get the same from her. There is nothing there,I don't love u, and even, I tried but nothing. She threatened to serve me and have me thrown out. I told her to do what she had to do. We did sit down and eat together the three of us but she made her own dinner from leftovers. Later she took all my clothes out if the master closet and threw them on the bed upstairs where I sleep. Next day I met w another attorney. I came to realize ITS DONE. I can't make her love me which I have told her. But listening to the attorney I am better off negotiating w her instead of fighting and hurting our son even more. She called me when I was in appointment and called her back. She wanted to verify that I was not signing deed over and that we are going to go to court. I told her that I don't want that just out everything in writing that you want. You are in the driver seat. It's been a couple of hours since I met w attorney and realized this is coming to an end. I got home,no one home,and screamed off the top of my lungs. Had a little anxiety attack and almost threw up. I think I have calmed down before writing here. I also made phone appointment w my coach. I still am going to DB but I know I have little time before the end. I know it's not the end but its not the outcome I wanted. I still pray and did today after my episode. I also pray for all of you going thru this. Who ever reads this please say a prayer for me aswell. It is in Gods hands from here.