No contact from xSO. I guess I really did scare him deep back in that tunnel. And of course, likely back into GF's life. Mind you, he was going in that direction anyway.
Psychologists study serial killers trying to find out why they kill. But really, they would be better off trying to figure out how someone who once professed to love you can turn on you on a dime. Not just leave you, but dump you by the side of the road.
His last words to me were that he really wanted me in his life. But yet - no contact at all.
And I am not going to contact him. I need to quit pretending we are just in a rough spot and remember the reality: he is likely gone.
Am in a bit of a mood today, angry and discouraged and frustrated that I cannot seem to kick him out of my head. And is he thinking of me at all? Doubtful.
