I just kept saying in my head. "She's already left you. She's in an affair. If you backslide you will lose her for sure. If you protect yourself with space and give her room to think you may still lose her or you might not. Don't be so foolish as to give her reasons to run. Show her your strength and give her your silent blessing to take her journey. If she's the woman you think she is she will make the decisions that are right for her. And that is most important to you."
Keep thinking that. Alternate with reading the 37 rules. That should keep you out of trouble for a little while.
You've already seen that changing your behavior has an effect. Stick with it.
Learn to feel all your feelings and take good care of them yourself so they don't leak out at inopportune moments.
I'm on a busy road trip so don't have time to write more now. I'll just report that listening to songs on the radio is proving to be a bad idea, still.
