Hey Shiss, I got similar complaints, you can work on all that but it is work.

You don't know if it's too late to save your M, see how your automatic thoughts jump in? You've failed before you started.

What are your goals?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss