Your words made me tear up, b. Emotions are raw- very raw.
And, I don't feel fabulous at all right now. I am questioning WHY I was not good enough for H. WHY he felt the need to seek out OW. WHY, after 20 years together did things fall apart and I not see them doing so until too late?
Sorry, just having a pity party solo.
I guess I will just drive myself crazy trying to rationalize things when they just aren't rational decisions he's made.
Boys spend the day with their dad (first day of school vacation). They had fun but S11 was getting upset this evening that I am not a part of their vacation time too (first year ever, as I could not get off of work this week). He said it's just not the same w/o you. I tried to convince him it would be great that he gets to spend more time w his dad since they don't see him as much, but that wasn't enough for him. S9 essentially said the same thing earlier in the evening.
I use to like roller coasters. Now, not so much.
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
