The View from the Blanket III

[littleGTO]

Hi, bustin!

First of all (((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))))))!

Secondly, you HAVE shown AMAZING growth in this journey.

And, I laughed at the whole "Groundhog Day" analogy, as I was just thinking the very same thing (same movie scenario) about my sitch!

I think the "normalcy" of being a family for a few days is very difficult. Confusing for the kids. Confusing for you. And then he goes off and lives a different life somewhere else WITH someone else.

I find that when my kids spend more time w their dad that they WANT even more time w him, so I can understand your kids' reactions to his leaving.

My S9 was having nightmares that where he would call for me & beg me not to leave him. Definitely fear of abandonment by me. After all daddy left, what's to keep mom from doing the same thing (in their minds)? Very sad and hard not to be angry at H for being the cause of their grief/sadness/fear/anxiety, etc.

And, I get the whole aloneness too. I am okay now with being alone. But, I want to share my life w someone who will be my partner. BUt, I also realize that I have to heal from this R first. And, the only thing that will help that is time-lots of it.

Finally, I can relate to your feelings about OW. I too have very strong negative feelings toward her. I always wonder how any person could enter into a R w a M person who has children (esp) and care so little for the person who they've entered the R with to not let them go so they can give their M a chance, their family a chance.

I think "If she really does love him, then why doesn't she let him go?" Answer- because she doesn't & she's in the same selfish place he is. Period. EVIL.

Arghhhh!. Sorry, I'm probably not helping at all except to let you know I understand what you're going through completely!