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Journal:
H has been gone for two nights now & didn't call our daughters either night to tell them goodnight. Before BD he would call every night or we would call him as they were getting in bed. When BD happened I quit calling him & left it up to him to call Ds. It's been hit or miss. He will be home tomorrow until Thursday & then off again until Monday.

D7 asked if dad was going to call them ever? I told her that he was probably working late, but I would text him to see if he could call real quick. H text back & said he was eating dinner & maybe he would later if it wasn't too late. I replied that they were in bed, as it is their bedtime, & were asking for him.

I guess if H chooses to leave & divorce the girls will be use to no calls goodnight by then.

Starting to feel anxious about his return tomorrow. I'm trying to already prepare myself for him leaving again on Thursday. He will be with OW this time he leaves & my emotions need to stay in check.

Called the obgyn today & made an appt. That makes it feel so much more real now. Debating of I should tell H about it or just let it play out?