Mtnman, I know it hurts. I know. And I'm so sorry.
It's the equivalent of me seeing my H with the same girl again and again on FB in social drinking sitches or just the two of them alone. (this was a year ago)
You don't REALLY know what is happening. You just think the worst. At least I do.
All you can do is not let yourself focus on it. Easy to say, I know. Allow yourself to know these uncomfortable things are happening to you...out of your control...not your fault....and all that. You're left holding everything together...the brunt of the household on you!
If you can allow these thoughts to flow through you and then turn your focus to yourself, your boys and your faith, you can get through this.
You have to hold it together so she will have something to come home to!
Do your best not to focus on the weekend.
There's a lot of good connection with you and your W, even if she saying she is not "in love" with you.
Hold on!!!
Oh, and I read the Laura Munson book twice through when I first started posting here last year. I don't remember whose thread I put that on recently, but I emailed the author and she emailed me some encouraging words back. It's an interesting read, but most people won't get through an MLC that fast. The principles are solid though...let your W go and rediscover yourself.
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
