Still treading water #4

[Grizz]

PF, cbt, JP, Blake, AS and SA, thanks to all of you for your words of encouragement. I need them. A few things that bother me are that getting a job was the only reason that she was still here. I have said that all along. I am just a paycheck to her. She has denied it. Now that is what is happening. Why not have the guts to just say it in the beginning?

AS, you mentioned that S may allow her to see that I was not the cause of her unhappiness. The tough thing in my sitch is that all of the things that were major stressors in her life are all going to be fixed about the same time which just so happens to coincide with her moving out. Regardless of where I am in the picture, she will be infinitely happier with a new job, they have finally gotten her health problems under control and the mystery problem with the car has now been fixed. So when she does move she will have tons of less stress already. She will not see that and miraculously she will be happy now that I am out of the picture.

Blake, I agree with you 100%. She loves to be able to prove people wrong. She is an attorney. It's in her DNA.

I was so happy at home with my girls today while W was still at work. It is so hard to project PMA when I see her. I don't even want to look at her right now. It is bad and I probably didnt do myself any favors but when she came home I was cold and short with her. The hurt has definitely turned to anger and that is no way to live.

She is gone to a meeting now. I am going to take the girls out to eat then I will leave to go play softball tonight. That should help some.

Thanks again guys.