Not confused...trying to move forward...

[BRNR]

Yeah, I don't know what I was thinking...momentary lapse of judgement.

There is nothing I can do, but I feel really weird doing nothing also.

Are things getting worse or did I take off the glasses? Hmmm! Good question. Probably the glasses, if I had to really think about it.

He has hurt me and will continue to as long as I stay close, so I have been quite effectively backing off as to protect myself. Why is it then that they don't hurt OP? Curious on that notion, especially when they are getting just as close, if not closer. It is okay to hurt me, your kids, and extended family and friends, but not them.

I am still uneasy letting go, it makes me feel like walking away. At least some days.

I am glad you have seen worse situations turn around, but I haven't seen any signs that mine will, and I know, patience, but mine is wearing on me really thin. Not sure that some days I have any left.

Glad to hear the words,"continue as I have been". Makes me feel better that I am learning and growing.

Thanks AJ, you always know what to say.