Been a busy few weeks. W doesn't want to really talk about M or D, still wants us to act like nothing is wrong.
The weekend after the rattlesnake roundup, I went out with some friends after work on Friday - was still home by about 8:30. On Saturday, though, W got home from work about 7:30pm. I had cooked dinner for D13 & W, and got cleaned up. Told W I was going out - and I went out and had a blast - got home around 1:30 am. Look forward to doing so again next weekend.
This past weekend was spent working at mom & dad's place.
Saturday night, I wanted to talk to W about sitch, taxes and paperwork - she left before I got home. So, I wrote her a quick note telling her we needed to discuss some issues regarding the divorce. Also said it seemed we're getting back to only talking about things via text messages and I wasn't comfortable with that, but, if that's what made her comfortable, then we'd have to work something out since there is a lot to discuss.
Overall, the two older D's understand what's going on. I've talked to both of them - W didn't want them to know, or just didn't want to be the one to tell them. Both D's also know not to say anything to D13 - that's the job of W and I.
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The more I think about things, it does tend to make me angry - at both of us. Her for her actions over the last 18 months or so, and me for acting like an idiot during part of that time and before. But then I just have to make myself realize the anger doesn't do me any good.
I needed to learn something from the mistakes we've both made to come out of this a better person. And to maybe salvage a working relationship with W out of this, for D13's sake. D23 & D22 have issues they need to discuss with their mom, but, both know now isn't the time since emotions are still running high for them.
