I've been struggling the last few days so have been absent from the boards. Things have blown up here and I'm still trying to wrap my hands around it.
I found, completely on accident, that my W has been sending OM self pics of her in short skirts, and sleepwear. Some were from early last week and some as far back as December. Also found evidence that they were together in Chicago in October, so I'm almost certain this has been PA.
I honestly thought she was past OM...sure, still confused about what she wants for us, but I just didn't see this. She played on my insecurities and I fell right into it. At every suspicious thing, she blamed my insecurity, and as I worked thru my issues, I began to do the same....I wanted to believe her, and so I chose to.
I was already headed towards getting her a settlement agreement this week, so this really hasn't changed the "big stuff" with the exception that my intentions not so much to give her freedom, but to give it to myself.
Day to day has gone from awesome to crap. She seems to be going about things like everything's normal, but I am so angry and hurt, I can barely speak to her. She's in the spare bedroom now and I plan to get her completely out of the MBR in the next week, clothes and all.
Really looking forward to my workout today....I may have to add in some running to keep my head straight.
