No, nothing going on with xSO. I feel like I am grieving the end all over again. Feeling very flat, tired. I know some of this is readjustment to life after the crazy ride I have had in the last eight months but I am finding it hard to equalize and to return to a normal pattern. Not even the weather is cooperating.
I never had much of a shot of R. And reading some of the threads of those that are getting there, I must admit my chances are even less than I thought. It appears that those who reconcile have lots of contact with each other, either living together or seeing and interacting with each other all of the time.
Logically, I know how unhealthy this brooding is but I cannot seem to stop it - I need him out of my head. So frustrating!
