I'm so sorry BA, I know you were really excited about this relationship. It [censored]. I'm recovering from the loss of a 14 month relationship myself. I ended it but I still loved her and feel immense pain because of it. Take your time, be good to yourself and review what you could have done differently...but later, not now. It's just getting through today that counts. I've turned to my friends and church group, they've been there for me. I hope you have people to support you too. Reach out to people, don't be shy or feel it's wimpy. In the end all we've really got in this life is God and each other... and that really is enough!
