Maybe. I think it was also the feeling of doing this on my own. Waking up on my own, raising the kids in my own... Get me? It was a dread of being alone. I haven't felt like that before in this way. Before it was a needy feeling needing H back. This was more of a feeling of wanting to add to my life.

I don't know. I am not expressing myself very well.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home