Not confused...trying to move forward...

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Thanks AJ. It has taken me too long to get here, but I glad I finally am. So, I really had a good week over all, and my weekend with the boys was great, even though we didn't do anything special.

We made out great on the yard work...found the keys, and got everything working and running. So far so good the yard looks nice, but we called it a day after a few hours...we spent more time figuring stuff out than we did working, and honestly, I was mentally spent.

So, what I realized this week, is that I can move on without my H. Funny, I never thought I would say that. I guess after our "conversation" last week, I just realized that my sitch really is no different then where it was at bomb drop. And h is really not my H right now. What (or who) am I holding onto? I also realized that having my H back in my life is a want, not a need. I know I will be fine without him. So, working on keeping myself busy with the boys when I have them, relaxing and enjoying my alone time when I am not, and getting my head back in the game at work.

The weather is warming up, and it has been so nice enjoying life outside of four walls. So I don't have much planned this week, other than work, the boys and all their "stuff", getting back on track with studying for my bookkeeper certification, and this upcoming weekend I decided to take a drive to some Outlets to do a little retail therapy...with the money I would have generally spent on H for his birthday! I am actually kinda excited for this, as I never really have gone that far away without the family in tow. Should be nice!

Here is to hoping that I get no news out of H this week ( no news is good news right?) . I need some peace and quiet...