One thing I would like to know more about is whether a W going through MLC is supposed to become more and more stubborn and certain about D? I was under the impression that MLC was them stuck in the fog. But my W seems to be clearing the fog and is more certain than ever that we are D, and is so arrogant about the way she talks about us never being together its very upsetting. She is also becoming increasingly rude and cruel about everything.

One thing I should have mentioned is that my W is on antidepressants. Around the time of BD, is the exact same time these would have taken effect. She claims that since BD she has never been happier or more certain of it being the right decision. Is this just bad timing for me? Of course she is happier! The drugs have just kicked in!!!!! The thing that troubles me is she is probably telling all her friends, and family that she is the happiest she has been in years, well of course their reaction to that will be that she seems happier so must be doing the right thing.

I also broke 2 of the 37 rules in the same hour tonight - I could see W physically pulling away.


Me: 38 W: 35
M: 9Yrs T: 15Yrs
S8 D5
BD: Feb 13
Still Living Together

I feel like I'm in thick forest, I'm slowly drawing a map of the way out, but not sure yet which side of the forest I will emerge.