MC is done. I told the therapist as much on Fri. She said we could bring the kids and tell them there, but I think she's had enough perverse pleasure from this whole sitch as it is.
Today, Sunday, turned out pretty awful as well, I'm afraid. I shot myself in the foot yet again, unfortunately. Done that so many times now they're starting to look like Swiss cheese. Today was pretty much the B-day to end all B-days. W made it clear that nothing I could do would get her to change her mind about wanting a D, and that she wished I would just move on. I dunno about anybody else's H/W, but when my W puts her foot down, no bulldozer on earth could pick it up again. I even mentioned how effed up it was that BIL went on about giving up, and she actually seemed pleased.
Obviously this is getting me nowhere so I need to really focus more on me. I'm actually looking forward to getting my own place so I can be more effective in improving myself for the sake of my kids, poor things. It's just so hard being so far from home, not being that at home with how the system works, and going through this having left so much behind. Now I'm looking at moving on at 42 with four kids. Potential dates aren't exactly going to be lining up at my door, are they? I'm in the best shape of my life, so maybe that'll help, but the one person I'm interested in being with just wants me to go away. Sorry...there I go again feeling sorry for myself... In truth, I've got to keep going with working on me, because there's nothing left to lose.
M41 W42 M 12 T 15 S10, D9, twin Ds 3 1/2 BD 1/2/2013 Living as roommates Working on D agreement w. mediator 5/13
