I'm sorry your sick. It makes everything more difficult doesn't it?
It sounds like you and W have done a wonderful job raising your sons and that you are a very loving family. That's what makes it hurt so bad.
It sounds like the desire to reunite the family is a big draw for your W. I think that is good and it's b/c you haven't fallen apart despite this big upheaval in your life.
I think your choice to not give the card for the anniversary was a good one. It sounds like you're managing despite your frustrations and anger with the sitch.
Take good care of yourself so you'll be back up to speed soon rH
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway