My dear T, you speak about being happy. And really, happiness doesnt come from another person. It comes from within. They may enhance our lives, but, they shouldnt provide happiness.
Having said that, all of this hasnt taken away my hope. And when there is hope, there is the potential, always, of real happiness.
I have great hope that one day I will find someone who loves me for who I am. But if I dont, I will still be happy.
Snd all of this hasnt stopped me from being at peace that I loved with all my heart, so much that I let him go.
It doesnt stop me from believing that I deserve happiness and peace.
So, T, will you ever truly be happy? I have great hope that you will be. Will it ever not hurt? In time, the hurt is like a healed scar. Still there under the surface, but, no longer searing pain.
Whether or not your marriage is healed, as long as you have hope, you will find happiness.
Continue to live your life. Your life. Enjoy each and every moment of it. Cherish those children.
And continue to hope and believe in yourself. Everything else will be as it should be. .
