I used to get angry back at him. I'd yell or fight until I got my own way. I'd never let him express what was bothering him. I always felt like he wasn't willing to express anything because he is very quiet and reserved.

I've come to realize that I have controlled the entire R without even realizing I was doing it. I didn't feel like I was controlling anything, but I was. I'm doing my best to change my ways, but there are days when I feel like it's too late to save my M. I know that by making the change, it will make me a better person whether I can reconcile or not.

Lately, I feel like my H wants to be friends. Is this a good thing? It's not like he's turned away from me completely. He seems to have "mood swings" where one minute he's upset with me and the next we can have a decent convo. Does anyone feel like it's still possible to save this? I know I'm only a month into the separation, and that's no time at all. I'm just looking for a little positive reinforcement. I could use it since most of the people around me are really pushing for me to just move on. That my H is done and I should be too.


Me: 33 H:33
M: 11 yrs
S: 3/8/13
H came home: 3/10/13
S for second time: 3/16/13