Yep, motley crew indeed. The puggle is normally dominant in his house. That doesn’t fly when I visit. Humans need to be pack leaders. (Channeling Caesar Milan) and I think that is why I was able to pull it off successfully.
Oddly enough I think being pack lead to the Mastiff was a factor in our divorce. It certainly allowed me to see some of the destructive drama occurring in the day to day interactions between X and myself.
The mastiff became lame about 6 weeks ago. I took him to the vet. It’s a torn or ruptured ACL. We won’t know for certain until after surgery. He goes under the knife in May. It is expensive. It will consume my tax refund. He is at mid life. If the damage can be repaired he has a good chance at a good quality of life for the next 4 to 5 years. It is my choice.
And there has been drama about tax returns. X has been emailing me about her travails regarding the exorbitant amount she owes. Either I engineered it or I should have warned her or I should help her find funds to pay what she owes. I have not replied. The only response anyone has gotten from me on the subject was, “She chose to take to take the full distribution as cash”, when my DIL brought up X’s IRS trouble.
It is a mute point now. The last email from X informed me God had provided a means of paying her debt in a lump sum. I do not know what exactly that means and after pondering it for a bit I am still puzzled. I am attempting to attribute this latest bump on the rollercoaster to “Oh well, you’ll have moments when none of it makes any sense”.
I hope you’ll respect this. My faith is personal. My relationship to God is my relationship. When X ran, she ran to friends from High School. Her friends have formed a church and they evangelize as part of their faith. X has decided our children need to be saved and is pursuing so with vigor. It is one of the stressors the children speak to me about and I have alluded to. Our Daughter has decided she wishes nothing more to do with X until X “comes to her senses”. I hope they work something out.
I believe that will be a long time coming. X does not accept our Daughter is gay and our Daughter has placed her acceptance as a condition.
Lastly, I am putting one foot in front of the other, getting stronger and more centered as time goes on. Good times ahead.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
and I think that is why I was able to pull it off successfully.
