Think social subguy, thinks friends. That is my D too!! But she doesn't get to see her dad that often either
They text and talk, but she values the one on one time, I think
Journal:
Okay, seriously? No willpower. said I would not stalk FB. New pic up for H, I don't know who is kissing his cheek (maybe work partner). A woman (GFs mom) "likes" photo and H posts yesterday "In a Relationship"
Ugh. Plus he has pulled back on all comms. I know, I know..... just venting a bit. Will go for run, tidy up, dance my assets off to ABBA, laugh, joke and talk tonight and enjoy life.
Does he see the road trip as I spent day with wife and always felt I would rather spend it with GF
Did he spend day with me and think "I could do this?"
Did it confuse or resolve his path....Really, I do know that I cannot mindread and his actions or thoughts should not affect mine, but truth be told, they sometimes do. The thing is that I am becoming more aware of this push and pull, at least. So I can make the choice, even if it is not the right one. Step one, awareness and fessing up .
Although I am getting out and doing things, I still feel as though I am waiting for my life to start, well, at least these days. I start school full time in September and have an eye towards that as fully occupying every second.
I think I am just tired today. Let's get through today and tomorrow is another day Scarlet
