Recently Separated and Need Help

[separated313]

Well here I am at 5:30am. Can't sleep. I got a nasty text message from my H last night. He thinks I told our kids to spy on him. Was reminded that what he does is none of my business and that we are not together. Why can't he see that the kids do the same thing to me all the time? They want to know who I'm talking to because they're hoping for their dad to come home. Why am I to blame for a child's normal curiosity? More and more, I feel like its just a waiting game anymore. Like one day the divorce papers will show up and it will really be over. I have no clue if this is a normal feeling. All I know is that I'm really missing my kids and I really wish I could stop thinking about what he said so I could get more sleep.